today i want to

take a hot shower 
and watch love island in my underwear
not worry whether i’ve made love island my entire personality
cancel plans that i know i’ll enjoy
drink various fizzy beverages over ice
not think about the money going out vs the money coming in
eat cold leftover chicken drumsticks straight out of the tupperware
do a youtube video workout
not feel bad when i'm too lazy to do it after all
kiss the tears off of my lover’s cheeks
keep my dog cool by all means necessary, a fan, a pack of peas, a kitty pool, ice cube treats
write something profound without agonizing over it for hours
eat a cold plum and pretend I'm william carlos williams
and not someone who feels crippling despair over every potential wrongdoing

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